How do I tell a story I don't understand
How do I grasp at a shadow
I know why they slept
Because I can't even think of you with the lights on
I want to paint buildings with the sight of you
I want to stand naked in store fronts so people can say - I see God in you
And when people see that we are beautiful
I want to be rubber to your glue so every praise would bounce off of me and stick to you
But I can barely think of you with the lights on
So I know why they slept
Because naked is not beautiful in storefronts
And different is just undesirable
Words of praise feel so rare some days that I can't help but steal them from you
You who have seen this world
Came into it curled in a fetal position in your mother's womb
Spent months building rivers of blood
Just to kneel in the shadow of Calvary
Vulnerable You might be brave
but vulnerable Me
How do I tell a story I don't understand
How do I grasp at a shadow - tie it to a tent stake and make room for the world under it
How do I dare ask for words that would reveal your reality
when I'm not really sure I want to see me in the light of you
In the light of truth
Because sometimes I still doubt its up to you
Your purity
Your vulnerability
Your unmasked humanity leaves me stunned, breathless
Courageous and ageless
Born of place less than perfect
But you are perfect
How do I tell what I don't understand
How do I grasp at a shadow
I am a modern-day Pharisee
and you stand there feeding me upside-down stories of revolutionary reality
Soaking the ground of Gethsemane
Why would you kneel for me
offer to heal me
come into this world and even be for me
My mouth has been sewn shut out of envy
Jealous of the one and only man who was his own savior
I don't want you to see me, to free me, to leave me
open to this new life
because I am not worthy
So I carry this envy
And I try every day on my own to save me
But you - you sweat blood for me
How do I tell what I don't understand
How do I grasp at a shadow
So how do I dare ask for words
that would reveal your reality
when I'm not really sure I want to see me in the light of you
In the light of truth
Because sometimes
I doubt if its up to you